I suppose I'm very much like my father in that way, he is a man who intentionally closes family ties and friendships and only allows a small select few into his inner circle. This behavior is especially notable during Christmas when my grandmother brings up members of the family closely related to us that we no longer speak to or have any contact with... for various reasons.
Lets get back to my stance on Christmas, to me it is a Christian holiday and me being non-Christian I feel it is bullocks that I’m subjected to it on the basis that I am. My mother happens to be a Christmas fanatic, she spends huge amounts of money on upkeep of decorations and actually has so many decorations it takes 2 weeks to put them all up… the tree alone is a 3 day venture. I’m expected to come and help, which I have no problem doing but the whole time I’m continually criticized for my decorating methodology and eventually I am told to go… which is fine by me but I have no idea why they ask.
I can’t even rationalize Christmas, it seems to be an excuse to have days off get together with people who you only see once a year (because that’s all you can stand them for), have drinks and try to enjoy yourself. I just can’t get involved with that, this week my parents have had many friends of my Mother come visit and I was expected to be part of the group. I don’t know half of these people, and I find it ridiculous that I’m supposedly obligated to play host.
This goes for a particular couple who are friends of my parents; I honestly can’t stand them and make every effort to avoid them. They tend to criticize me and everything I am about on a regular basis and that to me is beyond rude. I avoided them like the plague the other night; I luckily have kidney stones so I used that as an excuse to keep away... although I was in genuine pain. They bought me a gift, and now my parents are forcing me to go buy them something, I refuse on all levels. I’m an adult, and I will not get myself wrapped up in that racket… their gift was one of mocking anyway. A reference of something they want to change about me.
This cultural session of meet and greet which is preformed on my island isn’t even close to being over yet, I still have another week to put up with. This is triggering all sorts of anti-social behavior from me.
My parents got me gifts when I specifically put out in simple terms I want absolutely nothing. They bought me a bunch of expensive things which I really have no use for in reality. I would have rather had the money to spend on school costs, or a new computer for school related functions. I tried to buy some gifts for my father and he really chewed me out over it, then I tried my mother who is hard as hell to buy for… I bought her some stuff but it wasn’t nearly what she got me.
I cannot wait until it is said and done and I can have my normal life back, I’d rather be working and going to school then to put up with this foolishness another day longer.
Just call me the Scrooge.